“So do not fear, for I am with you;do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
I am sure many of us have come to that point where you get weary of the continuous situations affecting the joy in your life. I have come across this many times and i remember calling to God and pleading, “Hey God , we need to talk now. This is too much……” Well i do this because i believe that having joy in my heart is preeminent especially when it comes from God, therefore anything that cuts it short is not of good at all.
Nehemiah anchors it all out in a better tone for me and tells that the joy of the lord is his strength. In all my moments of despair and weakness i look up to the lord for a smile. Allow me to introduce to you the background of when it all happened,but perhaps you may not understand the exact day i discovered this significant breakthrough because of the many occasions i encountered,but one thing you will note is that i truly agreed and came to a conclusion that i needed him more than anyone else……….
It is amazing to say that during the weekend God promised his people on how he would give them a new beginning. I was more than revived when he went ahead and told them this would be so only if they forgot about the former things of the past. I was more than ready to delete all my pains, anger, bitterness, burdens, heartaches and miseries when i discovered that i was not the only one harboring such in me. I could see the people of God fall down in tears and letting go so as to let God in. I was ashamed of having carried such emotional baggage in me yet Christ had called me severally to lay them at his feet.Let me admit that i found an incredible rest when i did as per his commands and that is when i knew indeed he loved me this much.
Back in my moments of weakness when i thought i was finished and had no way out, when i passed through the darkest path in my life alone, i thought i had lost everything, i had no friend to tell, i trusted no one but just my only friend ‘pillow‘ who i can say new all my sorrows. It was there where every morning and evening before i could retire to bed that i would shed my normal tears and sleep. It was during this period i wanted to disappear from the world and live alone. I had the most spacious vacuum in my heart and hence this made me feel the most lonely person on earth. Have you ever questioned God? I had endless questions for him……….i actually thought he had forgotten about me.
I know many of you have reached this point where you walk smiling to people but deep down your heart is writhing in alot of pain.As if not enough, the sharp pains increase when you actually meet with the people that have contributed to your misery and all you want is to hurt them to but amazingly you pass by them smiling and saying,”hey” wishing in your thoughts they do not reply back. Remember it becomes worse when they are the same people you loved most………………>>>>>
This is the season you realize you need God more than anyone else. At such a time i would recall his promises from Isaiah 54:10 “For the mountains may move and the hills disappear, but even then my faithful love for you will remain. My covenant of blessing will never be broken,” says the LORD, who has mercy on you.” I would then comfort my self in God and that would be my turning point.
Since when i learnt that all i needed was him, i seeked his comfort alone and my song of tears changed to a song of jubilation. This became my new song.
God, hear my cry;
pay attention to my prayer.
I call to You from the ends of the earth
when my heart is without strength.
Lead me to a rock that is high above me,
for You have been a refuge for me,
a strong tower in the face of the enemy.
I will live in Your tent forever
and take refuge under the shelter of Your wings. Selah
Truly,since then i have not only seen his hand in my life but i have seen his face encouraging me day by day. My storms he has turned into achievements and my enemies he has delivered them. I seek his counsel, his love, mercy and abounding grace which he pours unto me every single day that i wake up. I now walk as a daughter of the most high because he has given me a new name.
Maybe you are there and you have been called names that are not pleasing, you have been rejected by friends and family, you have had a painful life, maybe your business is not working and you feel as if all hope is lost. I encourage you today that you don’t need anyone to help you but only him that is above. Do not depend on man dear one otherwise you will be disappointed more.Find joy and strength God and you will be encouraged all the days. You should know that he is seeking for the weak and he assures them he will make them strong.
I write to give hope to the many that felt their journey was cut short in one way or another. May you find the new revelation that God is watching and you do not have to be worried. It might take time to finally get there but he is saying he is still on time. Do not give up on God because all you need is him.
Take a deep breath,forget about everything else, forget about family & friends, forget about yourself and focus on him.Do not please anyone else but him alone no matter what will be said about you. He surely will do something beautiful for you. If you thought you had fallen please pick up your mat and walk because he will do something new in your life. Do not look behind continue walking. He is the God of a second chance to all who feel they are not worthy before him.I tell you that when i knew it was all about him i forgot how my tears looked like and i rejoice everyday of my life!